Gotta pull up my socks!!!

I seriously gotta start pulling up my socks at work!!!
ARGH!! Feeling so de-motivated & lazy all the time. It's March agan, Good luck~Where are you?

If you want to ask how I am now, you really do not have to worry.
I'm fine.I moved on after crying. The only thing that can makes me stop moving on are the things I let it affect by my own accord which some I can't control.

I dunno how Jason is feeling honestly. All he asked was can I give another try?
Another try..I do want us to be happy as before. But when all these happened now, I realised I do not know Jason very well and by that I always have this feeling.
He is like forever far from my heart, far from my sight when I dont see him and he never does things to really improve that.
Now that he finally, finally...tell me the reason for all that, I just do not know ...honestly..do not know what to say or do.

Let's just say I am responsible for this?Let's just put it as it is then.

So by another try...I dunno if it's really gonna work up. Cos' if I can't get over it, he can't accept it...it's gonna be the same old sad case. You will soon hear me complaining about the lack of attention he gives, the lack of efforts he does and then I will be finally vindicated cos' all of that was because he can't accept how I feel?

I don't want to go through one round again and I had made my stand clear. I won't forget, I won't promise. I know this is selfish but I don't want to lie to you especially.

If you think you can finally embrace that, then...start by showing me the efforts I'm talking about..not just for a month or two. I meant for long, if that is what future you are thinking about.

Can you show me that another try?